Purposive without Foresight

Recently I’ve been reading a lot on parenting, and find that I was so unprepared before Kai was born. I had little problem during the 9+ months of my pregnancy. It really gave me a false sense of security. I thought, how difficult can parenting be? And I spent all my reading time on preparation for the CFA exam. Now my self-expectation turns much more realistic. Kai is more important than any exam for now. I’ll still try my best on the exam, but even if I fail this time, I would not blame myself too much. But I do blame myself now for having not read enough baby-raising books during my pregnancy. Had I read the books “The Happiest Baby on the Block”, “What to Expect the First Year”, etc. before Kai was born and get prepared for the parenthood, Kai would not have suffered so much from his colicky crying! Sorry my dearest Kai, mama is now reading a lot for you, let’s get along well in the future!

Tags: family, life, parenting