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Kai started speaking mama about one week ago. When he stood in his crib, eyes looking into my eyes, dragged my shirt, and called mama in a very cute and tender voice, my heart always melted. Today his 4th tooth came out.

He likes to rock his head whenever there is music or whenever he felt happy. His rocking-head always amused people in the street or in the stores. Such a sweet baby! He also started to passionately wave his hands, turn around his fists swiftly.

Kai is learning walking. His crib is kinda boring and too small for him. We’d like to build a play yard in our living room for him. To our dismay, the commercial free-stall barn for toddler-to-bes are very expensive. The one we wanted to buy cost 300+ euros. Dirk built a free-stall barn for Kai with more than 100 bottles of water. The water-wall is very sturdy and Kai enjoys staying in his play yard. What a great idea

It has been a long while since last parenting diary was written. Kai spent three months in my hometown with his grandparents from middle April to middle July.

Kai in Ningbo Kai has got a beautiful life in Ningbo. Grandparents prepared a very nice environment for Kai in their apartment. He had big and safe crawling exercise place at home. Nurtured by grandparents’ love and care, Kai was happier than ever in Ningbo. He creeped well when he was about 5 month old, and started crawling with hands and knees at 6th month. He could sit without any supporting at the beginning of his 7th month. Just several days thereafter, he could pull up into standing position by himself. Now he is a passionate exerciser of walking. People in Ningbo love him very much. My parents drove him out whenever the weather is good. He has visited many interesting places near Ningbo. In big, modern shopping galleries and supermarkets, in busy streets and in quiet Buddhism temples, and in green villages in mountain area, Kai always enjoyed the trips and smiled to people around him. My mother played with him in our community playground every day. He has made a lot of baby friends in our community. There is a very big river-side park just in front of our apartment. We also walked often in the park. So far he has never shown any stranger anxiety. Now we are back in Germany. Poor Kai has only mama around him during the day. I went out with him everyday, even when the weather is not good. During the first weeks when we are back in Germany, life was tough for me. Slowly I find out a good routine for raising a toddler-to-be all alone during the day time, and no longer feel that exhausted.

Kai started to say “Dia dia” and “Ba ba” at the beginning of 7th month. Now he babbles very much. In Ningbo he has tried out many fine cuisines. Steamed plum fish was his favourite. He eats anything we fed him, in a neat and swift manner. Now back in Germany, I take care of him all alone during the day, not really possible to cook the fine cuisines we have had in Ningbo. Good news is that in Germany there is a very rich variety of ready-made baby food. Every morning and noon I give him a glass of baby food, most of which contains rice, meat, fish, potatoes, carrots, pumpkin, and many other kinds of vegetables. In the evening I usually feed him with rice cereal. He could eat more than 200 ml every evening. He still drinks my milk. A lot. I nurse him whenever he wants my milk, sometimes as frequent as every 15 minutes a drink for Kai. Other than the three meals and milk drinks, I also give him finger food for training his fine motor skills. He likes rice waffle very much, and is now able to pick a small piece of rice waffle with his thumb and index finger and send the food to his mouth. Whenever we eat fruits, Kai also gets some. Peaches, apricots, strawberries, bananas, bayberries, watermelons, cherries, plums….he loves them all. He can also feed himself blueberries. Three teeth have shown up. They came out one after another in the textbook-order. Kai did not make a big fuss when teething, just put his own fingers into his mouth a lot and drools a lot.

Kai is very happy, smiles and grins a lot most of the time. But has shown some separation anxiety. Now I have to carry him almost wherever I go. Sometimes he cries even when I have to go to toilet.

Kai still does not sleep through. I have to nurse him at least twice every night till now. Dirk said, if not the sleeping problem during the night, Kai is almost a perfect baby.

During the last several months, I did the CFA L1 exam for the first time and failed with rank 9. Felt upset shortly after the result was known. But now I am thinking of taking the exam again in December in Frankfurt. I do not know whether this is too ambitious beside a 24/7 job of raising a toddler-to-be. My family encourage me. At the moment, the reality is that I have seldom time and quiet for reviewing the curriculum. Maybe more patience is needed. If Kai cannot get place in local daycare facilities, maybe the CFA exams have to be postponed. In November I will work in my company again. Full time job + toddler-caring & early education + further education for myself. It will not be easy for me, but I want to give my best. Dirk is working ultra hard for a better future of the family too.

Kai’s online gallery has not been updated for months. I will take care of it if there is time.

出于好奇, 看了电视台播的前 20 集。 没有办法恭维这部戏。 说是拍这部剧花了好多钱。 看了 20 集以后觉得这么多钱花得舍本逐末。 为了更好地说明问题, 以下的讨论拿 1995 年版和 2005 年版的傲慢与偏见一起来比较印证。

一部剧的灵魂在于剧中的人物。 2010 红楼梦里的人物塑造基本上是失败的。 演员的相貌, 造型倒并不是最大的问题。 傲慢与偏见原著中的伊丽莎白是个体态轻盈, 相貌却并不好看的乡绅之女。 1995 年 BBC 版的剧集傲慢与偏见中, 扮演伊丽莎白的 Jennifer Ehle 当时身材却很是 heavy。 但是她的眼神灵动, 表情生动, 念词清晰到位。 男主角 Colin Firth 本身并不如何英俊高大, 可是他把达西那种冷漠, 傲慢,却又对伊丽莎白情不自禁, 绅士的含蓄与骑士的低调, 都表现得恰到好处。 结果, 这一对头一眼看去与原著中人物形象相去甚远的演员, 用他们的神情和语言, 将书中人物百分百演活。 看这部剧时我已是一把年纪,心情却随剧中人物悲喜起伏, 感受到男女主角之间的巨大化学作用。 达西跑去夏洛蒂家向伊丽莎白告白的一幕, 场景就是很简单的一间屋子, 最普通的陈设, 最普通的光线。 出彩的就是两位演员的表演。 这一出表演主要就是对白, 两位演员实在念得太好。 2005 年美国人拍的电影版中, 场景, 陈设, 和人物的衣着造型都比 95 版的华丽了许多。 还用了各种别的手段制造戏剧化效果, 渲染气氛。 比如, 达西向伊丽莎白告白在大雨滂沱的户外景区。 两人在那样一处青翠氤氲, 适合修仙入定的所在狠狠大吵一场, 而且是极快板二声部。 画面上是大雨中二人青筋暴起, 龇牙咧嘴的特写, 望去激情澎湃的样子。 这样的一幕对观众的感染力能有多少? 很不好说。 反正我是至今没有完全听明白他们都说了些什么。 美女, 型男, 美景, 豪宅, 表演上却失于肤浅而缺少情感上的张力。 看完了电影我觉得莫名其妙, 赶快翻出 95 版的剧集再看一遍, 享受这个经典爱情故事的细腻动人。 回到红楼梦剧集中。 主创人员花了很多心思在道具, 陈设, 光线的运用, 等等事情上面。 说是呕心沥血做出来的剧集, 我是相信的。 但是剧中主要人物大多没有表现好。 或者是演员尽了力, 却是本来就不适合那个角色。 蒋梦婕不是不好看, 跟书中林黛玉的风流袅娜个人以为还是有点距离。 演员的眼神和表情常常有些很不合时宜的呆滞木讷。 林黛玉这个人物在剧中毫不生动。 我看了 20 集, 对这个人物喜欢不起来。 相对而言, 小宝钗是演得不错的。 演员把宝钗的大方, 乖巧通过明亮的眼睛, 端庄的微笑和体态, 不紧不慢的动作和清晰的念词表达出来。 美中不足是演员长得不够圆润。 这个不是大问题。 Jennifer Ehle 肥成那样也不妨碍她演的伊丽莎白受到全球无数观众的衷心喜爱。 剧中的王熙凤是真真令人难受。 几乎句句话她都是花枝乱颤地说的, 也未免把人物表现得太轻浪了些。 总之许多演员的表演都比较肤浅, 缺乏艺术感染力。

不得不提的是剧中用到的华丽布景和道具。 个人觉得, 一来没有必要。 如果作为前景的人物没有表现到位, 那么作为背景的其他种种再华丽精美也并不能补拙。 二来, 其实这样华丽的布景道具很分观众的心, 喧宾夺主, 弄巧成拙。 本是应该表现人物的剧, 不能拍成了文玩鉴赏片。 1995版傲慢与偏见中, 夏洛蒂家那间简单至极的屋子给两位情感张力十足的主演提供了一个最好的烘托, 观众完全集中注意力于人物, 能更好地感受二人的性格特点。 另外一个例子, 1983 香港无线版的射雕英雄传的布景不能不说粗糙简陋, 但是两位主演演出了人物性格特点, 演得自然不做作。 那部戏至今受到观众喜爱。 2010 版红楼的用光我个人觉得做作无比。 像剧里那样明暗斑驳的光效偶尔一用可以很好地烘托气氛或者强调某个对象, 但若是每一帧都用那样风格的光就是程式化的奇技淫巧, 匠气有余而创意不足。 伦勃朗的人像用那样的光是有意图的。 2010 版红楼中很多极日常的场景, 用光应该是平实低调点的手法, 都搞得过份刻意, 我看不到丝毫的艺术意图。 感觉有些借唯美之名行媚俗之实。 2005 版的傲慢与偏见中也有一处用了伦勃朗光。 那是在 Lady Catherine de Bourg 的大城堡里。 那一幕的用光很好地表现了 Lady Catherine de Bourg 不可一世的淫威。 人家没有从头到尾每一帧都用那样的手法, 说明该电影的美术工作者知道自己在干什么。 说到 2010 版红楼画面的运镜构图个人认为其实很是单调, 平面化, 看不到多大的创造力。 许多电玩名作的片头, 片尾以及过场动画的视觉语言要比 2010 红楼丰富许多。 一时想得到的有 “轩辕剑三 — 云和山的彼端” 的宣传动画, 还有 “仙剑奇侠传四” 第三版宣传动画的前一分钟。

剧中的音乐也是没法听。 87 年版红楼梦, 王立平写的音乐实在是太好, 荡气回肠细腻动人可以绕梁三千年。 这回他老人家不肯再写, 另外可请的, 熟悉中国古典音乐风格的作曲家还有雷颂德, Ricky Ho, 骆集益, 鲍比达等等。 这些人不光多产, 而且他们的许多作品, 都是经过了时间的考验长盛不衰。 前几天陪妈妈看百家讲坛, 听到央视的编辑用雷颂德为 “青蛇” 写的音乐给讲坛中的内容配乐。 定是我自己水平有限, 不懂得欣赏谭盾大师的高深作品。 我觉得上面提到的四个人中随便哪个都可以写出比 2010 红楼梦的配乐更体现原著精神, 也更动听的配乐。

个人认为 2010 版的红楼梦比较失败。 看了 20 集, 浪费不少时间。 写篇博文, 作个小结, 不会再看下去。

和妈妈一起看青歌赛, 听了不少新创作的歌曲。 形象, 自然, 优美, 亲切, 有境界的歌词没有看到一首, 大多数新歌的歌词是空洞的词藻堆砌或者无病呻吟。 我无法不想起美丽的老歌: “一条大河波浪宽, 风吹稻花香两岸。 我家就在岸上住, 听惯了梢公的号子, 看惯了船上的白帆。( 我的祖国 )”; “让我们荡起双桨, 小船儿推开波浪。 水中倒映着美丽的白塔, 四周环绕着绿树红墙。 小船儿轻轻, 飘荡在水中, 迎面吹来了凉爽的风 ( 让我们荡起双桨 )。”; “姐儿头上插着杜鹃花呀, 迎着风儿随浪逐彩霞。 船儿摇过春水不说话呀, 水乡温柔何处是我家 ( 罗大佑: 船歌 )。 ” ; “贝壳爬上沙滩看一看世界有多么大, 毛毛虫期待着明天有一双美丽的翅膀, 小河躺在森林的怀抱唱着春天写的歌, 我把岁月慢慢编织一幅画。 (李子恒: 蝴蝶飞呀)” 美啊!

我觉得, 有些事没法怪当今的词作者。 每个时代有它自己的 Zeitgeist, 词作者和听众的审美趣味也一直在变。 可是有些技术上的功课词作者还是可以修练的。 把词写通顺了是最起码的要求。 可是, 青歌赛新歌歌词中不通的词句比比皆是。 今后是不是把词曲的质量也算在歌手的得分里呢? 毕竟, 辨别词曲质量的好坏也是歌手的综合素质的一方面呢。

好的歌曲, 整体上曲风和歌词的意境相得益彰, 细节处乐句的起伏停顿和词句内在的情感张力配合贴切。 上面举的四个例子都是这样。 这次青歌赛通俗组决赛中有一首歌用了海子的名诗 “面朝大海,春暖花开”, 个人觉得配的曲子过分低吟浅唱, 绵软无力。

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有听说新拍的三国演义剧集在热播。 在网上看了8集, 被剧中的台词雷到, 不想再看下去。 很不客气地说, 不知道该剧编剧的中学语文有没有及格过。 典故的乱用倒在其次, 看戏时最令人难受的是那个不文不白的台词没有几句是通顺的。 那么大的一个剧组, 拍摄时竟然没人指出台词的问题。 演员自己也不说。 想着令人泄气伤心。

当今娱乐界语感正常又有文采的文字工作者不是没有。 前上海软星的王世颖女士和现上海烛龙的张毅君先生为一些游戏写的文字脚本令人印象深刻。 小孩子玩游戏受他们的影响, 起码讲话通顺。 我老早没有时间玩他们做的大型游戏, 但是每次他们出新作, 都会买来支持他们的工作。 张毅君就要出古剑奇谭, 我在亚马逊中国上预订了。 希望十年以后, 我的儿子能从中学到一些通顺, 克制的中文。

上个月德国大事件一波接一波。 黑森州州长在政坛打滚几十年后恍然大悟 “这不是我想要的生活”, 辞职下海经商。 默克尔所在的基民盟输掉德国人口最多州的大选。 小姑娘莱纳得了欧洲歌赛的第一名, 全国上下还没从狂欢会的酒精中清醒过来, 总统又突然辞职。 官方说法是健康原因。 坊间盛传真正原因是他在出访阿富汗时说德国这样的外贸大国在外国也是需要军队保护经济利益的。 这句话在德国国内政治不正确。 这位备受德国人民爱戴的总统活活被媒体的唾沫淹到辞职。 辞职声明一发表, 好多德国媒体又说他没勇气没担当。 董桥写的一本书上有说, “时代” 杂志已故集团总编辑 Hedley Donovan 谈传媒操守与责任,要求的是 warmth without sloppiness; sharpness and snap without cruelty; worldliness without vulgarity﹙温馨而不伤感﹔尖锐而不凉薄﹔入世而不低俗﹚。 以这样的标准看, 德国媒体的尖刻凉薄实在是没有水准。 对自己这位低调和蔼的总统都这样, 对外人就更不客气。 几年前明镜周刊写中国间谍那篇文章几近诽谤。 把习惯上比较喜欢闷声发财, 不爱生事的当地中国人都气到上街游行抗议。 德媒固然有他的言论自由, 但是人都是有尊严的, 以言论自由之名践踏他人尊严, 实在是没有水准。

回国住了两个多月, 看了不少新闻联播。 中国的媒体有时也是让人没有脾气。 努力帮助灾区人民, 派飞机接身处动乱邻国的侨民回家, 等等等等, 都是政府分内的事。 做不好要追究责任, 做好了天经地义。 新闻里老是放受惠人民对党对政府千恩万谢的故事我感到很不舒服。 不是对受惠人民的诚恳感谢感到不舒服, 而是对媒体机构老是宣扬这些感到怪怪。

两国媒体相对比而言, 德国媒体尖酸刻薄的坏话讲太多, 中国媒体歌功颂德的好话讲太多。 德国社会为一点点鸡毛蒜皮的事可以没完没了地讨论, 浪费很多社会资源, 争论不休的机会成本很高。 中国社会表面文章做得多了一点, 对民众利益和尊严的强调少了一点。 建设决策虽然快, 可是之中的浪费也有不少。 好在中国人是认识到这一点的。 有一天看新闻说, 政府正在努力让老百姓活得更有尊严。 这句话能不能落到实处有待观察, 但是, 官方能够这样高调提出来, 我觉得是个好事, 看到希望。 这次回来有和老同学聊天。 不少聪明能干, 有知识有眼界有教养的老同学考上了公务员。 如果新一代的政府官员多数是他们那样的水准, 中国大有希望, 不光可以再高速发展三十年, 民众还可以得到更多的实惠。 我由衷感到高兴。

刚刚看了 Eurovision 2010, 德国电视一台解说的版本。

这次好多歌手都蛮有声乐造诣。 印象最深的是白俄罗斯, 罗马尼亚和格鲁吉亚的选手们, 先天声音好, 唱功也了得。 还有俄罗斯, 挪威和以色列的型男, 和另外几国几位体型比较 heavy 的大妈, 唱得也都好。

唱功之外, 歌曲曲风也是很多样, 放在同一场 show 中一起听很好玩。 印象最深的是塞浦路斯的歌手唱的歌, 节奏和旋律都十分怪异, 有不少乐句全是半个音半个音地滑上滑下。 那首歌要是放在青歌赛让选手们视唱, 难度是很大的。 西班牙选送的歌也比较少见, 我觉得很好听。 比赛之前打赌网站上的夺冠热门阿塞拜疆的 Drip Drop 曲风听上去很主流很美国, 节奏简单旋律鲜明。 个人以为歌手嗓子实在太糙, 不够悦耳。 最后没拿冠军是应该的。 有趣的是这次颇有几首歌, 词曲听着像中国的晚会歌曲, 很光明很和谐的样子。 比如挪威的 You Are the Sunshine, 英国的 That Sounds Good to Me, 爱尔兰和冰岛的歌, 都是。

再说歌手的长相。 这次帅哥美女很多。 以色列的歌手长相很像金城武, 唱歌还比金城帅哥好得多。 俄罗斯的男歌手也很漂亮。 美女太多, 数不过来。

这次的舞台美术也很有创意。 过场衔接时, 从出场歌手的国家地图变换到该国国旗的三维动画很流畅很新颖。 许多国家的伴舞都很独特很好看。 Grand Prix 虽说是唱歌比赛, 却真的不是光听就可以了。

最后得冠军的是德国选手。 得奖歌曲是美国人写的英文歌。 曲风时髦, 又平易近人。 歌手 Lena 够年轻够漂亮, 没有受过专业的声乐训练, 德国也没有派出光鲜的伴舞团队给她助阵。 我个人觉得, 这样就使德国的节目在众多舞美精心编排, 歌手唱功专业的国家中显得比较 refreshing。 这个第一其实也是做足市场研究后精心策划的结果。 德国就有媒体将这件事上纲上线。 小姑娘得胜回国时, 她家乡的州长专门去机场以接待总统的规格迎接她, 国家总理也放话说 Lena 的自然纯真代表德国年轻一代的形象。 我想起 2008 年中国奥运会前后, 很多德媒总是攻击中国将奥运会政治化, 中国政府利用奥运会为自己赢得民心。 五十步笑百步。 有事件可以利用, 作为政界人士不利用不宣传那是他们失职不专业。 德国媒体不能只允许自己的领导专业, 不允许人家的领导也专业。

作为单纯的娱乐节目去看, 这次我最喜欢的是罗马尼亚选送的节目。 整个节目视觉爆发力十足, 歌手唱功又无可挑剔。 总之, 2010 年欧洲歌赛的整场演出十分精彩, 值得想办法找来看看。 我也期待中国今后能有电视台转播欧洲歌赛。

在中国青歌赛正在进行。 我陪妈妈看过一些。 青歌赛最重视唱功, 不同于 Eurovision 中对唱功的要求不高。 个人觉得余秋雨的知识题讲解常常喧宾夺主。 很多知识点, 要发挥的话可以讲上几个钟头几个月, 青歌赛毕竟是歌赛, 如果歌手唱歌用了 4 分钟, 而听余老师的高谈阔论要用到 5 分钟, 我就觉得有点主次颠倒了。 而且有些题, 确实出得不好。 有一题要求说出船山, 梨洲, 亭林三位古人的名字。 题板上把梨洲写成了黎洲, 解题时余秋雨不指出来, 却大论启蒙先知和落后时代的互动。 启蒙主义的要义我觉得是个人精神相对于神权的解放, 对个人自由, 个人权利的尊重, 反封建专制反特权。 中国社会至今尚未完全完成启蒙。 王阳明, 黄宗羲和顾炎武的思想学说算不算启蒙, 值得商榷。 余秋雨解题时大可以简要介绍一下他们三人的主要著作和思想要义, 启蒙不启蒙的大可不必定论。 这题考歌手我觉得没有必要。 人家要是答不上来, 不能就此说明歌手的素质低。 人有志趣爱好不同, 要是人家歌手在家里研究机器人或者原子物理, 怎么就不见得给他加素质分? 所以我觉得这个素质题还是免掉算了, 歌赛就是歌赛, 综合素质的范畴那么广, 考什么才对各位歌手都公平? 要抢收视率也不必非要素质题这个噱头, 像 Eurovision 欧洲歌赛那样把舞台, 美术搞得漂亮有创意就可以很吸引。 视唱听音是该考的, 这些是歌手的专业素质, 歌手考得不好, 是失职不专业。

青歌赛中我最惊艳美声组陈苏威的美嗓。 那样天生通透的声音很难得的, 下了苦功也未必练得出来。 好好栽培他, 可以有大的成就。

青歌赛中的女歌手都很漂亮, 可是许多大裙子太不养眼。 下次比赛, 能不能免掉余秋雨的问答题, 把歌手的服装设计算作得分的一部分呢? 这样也许歌手们就会选好看点的服装了。

On June 6th I took the CFA Level 1 exam in the test centre in Shanghai. First of all, the level 1 exam itself, to be honest, was not extremely difficult. I finished reading volume 1 and 2, and about half of volume 3 of all the CFA L1 curriculum, and worked all the exercises after each reading shortly before Kai was born. After his birth, I did not manage to pick up the curriculum again until after I came back to home in China. My parents helped looking after Kai, nursing might be the only thing I had to do for Kai. I still have to get up about twice every night feeding Kai, but it is already a lot better compared to 5 or 6 nursings a night when he was still small. We visited relatives and had a lot of visitors during the first two weeks when I arrived home. So I had totally about one month for reading the remaining 3.5 volumes. I studied about 12 hours a day. About several days before the exam, I finally finished the readings, made my own study notes with LaTeX, worked most of the exercises after each reading. It was a very tough job. The study material itself is actually grokable, but the amount of knowledge is really too huge for such a short study time. I could not manage to learn every page by heart. In the exam, there was no single concept I have not met during my study, but I did not answer everything right. Ah well. I’ve done my best, my parents and my husband have done their best in supporting me. There is really nothing to regret.

I know there are various shortcuts for preparing the level 1 exam. Some said they passed it without touching the curriculum. There are “notes” one can buy, such as Schweser notes, Stalla notes, etc. After the exam I also learnt that in China there are many cram schools which state their only goal is to help you pass the CFA exams. But I do not like to take these shortcuts. My current job is decent and my employor is very nice. But I am really interested in the investing business. During my pregnancy, I enjoyed reading the CFA curriculum as much as reading E. H. Gombrich’s or Ray Huang’s works. The CFA curriculum brought a better understanding of the modern world to me. Reading through the curriculum is a very fulfilling experience to me. Compared to the theoretical computer science curriculum I took in the college, the CFA curriculum is much closer to the real world and everyday life. Besides, many readings are very well written. The only reading I felt really difficult to grok is the “Reading 38: Income Taxes” in volume 3: Financial Reporting and Analysis. I liked Keith C. Brown and Frank K. Reilly’s writings so much that right after the exam, I ordered their book “Investment Analysis and Portforlio Management” and want to read more. While I fully understand that many CFA candidates cannot or do not want to do more than “cracking the exam”, I think it is really a pity if the curriculum is not read through (If one is already in the investment business and already knows everything in the curriculum then it is another story).

Now something about the exam event. The CFA Institute rent 7 floors in Shanghai International Exhibition Center. Several thousands candidates took the exam there. I have not taken part in such a big exam event my whole life, and did not imagine how many people there were. When I saw the 70-meter waiting queue outside the toilet, I was really scared. During the lunch break, my chest hurt a lot and I urgently needed a toilet to pump away my milk, no, but it was impossible to do it in the test center’s toilet. I ran out, all the restaurants near the test center were full of candidates. I almost cried. At the end I ran in a furniture mall and finally started pumping away my milk. But many female candidates kept coming to the same toilet and some could not wait and kept kicking my door. It was so terrible. Next time if I take the exam in Shanghai again, I should book a room in a hotel nearby and have my lunch there. The tables in the exam hall are very low. Doing exam at such low tables for 6 hours is hard. Maybe next time I will take my CFA exam in Frankfurt or Munich merely because the tables there must be higher. The proctors and security staffs were very friendly and help-ready. The storage for personal belongings were not locked, but apparently there wasn’t any thief. Many drank red bull during the lunch break. Kai is still having my milk, I cannot drink red bull. But I do not think red bull could really help. In the after session, I was so extremely exhausted. During the last hour, I almost no longer knew what I was reading, had to go through every question for 3 or 4 times in order to figure the issues out. This exam is also physically very challenging. Next time, I will definitely take some grape sugar with me. All in all it was unforgetable experience.

After the exam my cousin sent me out of Shanghai and my father picked me up. Kai was very well-behaved during the night without mama. My mother fed him with formula milk twice. To be honest I really wish I could pass the exam. My whole family have paid so much effort. If some day I really get the CFA charter, they should be awarded half of it.

Since Kai’s birth I did not have much time for preparing the CFA exam. I lost my heart on it long ago. But recently, encouragement from various sources made me pick up the curriculum again and these days I’m studying like crazy. Therefore there has been no update in my blog and the online gallery. Well, I’ll write more and post more photos after the exam on June 6th.

Like always, today I was typing notes while studying. Below are two lines in my Tex file. I typed the first line, copied it to the second and modified the second line:


...
Exhibit 2 & Illustration of full valuation approach to assess the interest rate risk of a two bond portfolio (option-free) for three scenarios assuming a parallel shit in the yield curve & P 522 \\
Exhibit 3 & Illustration of full valuation approach to assess the interest rate risk of a two bond portfolio (option-free) for three scenarios assuming a nonparallel shit in the yield curve & P 523 \\
...

I burst into laugh when later I read these two lines again. One letter was missing in both lines. You do not have to understand a thing in the bond stuff in order to get you a good laugh here. Get it?

PS: I am really not sure whether I can finish studying the curriculum in time. But I am giving my best. Telling myself: Hold on and fight. Even if I lose, at least I will not regret. And, at least the self-made study note for my next try is there.

这次回国给我中学时的声乐老师捎来欧洲歌赛 Eurovision 2007, 2008 和 2009 的录影。 忙着备考, 还不曾拜访老师, 只在家里将那几张 DVD 放给妈妈看过。 妈妈喜欢看青歌赛,晚上我也看到过一些比赛的片段。 把 Eurovision 和中国的青歌赛放在一起看真的很有意思。

Eurovision 近几年的舞台布景很漂亮。 灯光, 服装, 舞美都用得很有创造力。 中国央视其实比人家更有钱。 青歌赛舞台上的各种设备看上去绝不会比欧洲的差。 可是整体感觉就是很呆板。 歌词有高山, 背景大屏幕就放高山。 歌词有大海, 大屏幕就放大海。 切题是切题, 也都是很美的摄影作品。 可是比较 Eurovision 的舞美灯光而言, 缺了一点点想象力, 太过具象了。 画画要懂得留白, 舞台打灯要懂得留黑。 不是说灯光越亮越华丽就越有美感。 2009 年的 Eurovision 决赛上, 亚美尼亚共和国选送的作品 Jan Jan 跟我们新疆的歌舞很相像。 节奏, 旋律都像, 那个舞蹈一眼看去会以为是我们的新疆姑娘跳的。人家舞台上的幽暗灯光更渲染气氛。 青歌赛上新疆代表队的舞美就是没有人家的浪漫。 青歌赛不准伴舞, 可是歌手照样也可以动手动脚, 表演得更生动一点。 人家亚美尼亚的两位歌手也是边唱边跳的,那首歌难度还蛮大。 个人认为是当年所有进决赛的歌曲里, 除了一两首美声歌曲之外难度最大的。

中国的青歌赛由专业评委评分。 Eurovision 的结果, 2009 年以前就是完全由全欧洲民众电话投票决定。 青歌赛基本上由歌手的声乐水平决定胜负。 Eurovision 中, 歌手声乐水准的高低对结果影响不大。 因为人民大众并不都是歌唱家, 影响民众打分的因素多不胜数。 每个人的好坏标准不一样, 想赢就必须摸透大众心理, 清楚时尚座标, 尽力迎合群众口味。 这样一来,Eurovision 歌赛就有几个很明显的特点。 一是美国主流 Pop 曲风基本统治赛场, 07 年 08 年都是美风 pop 赢的。 二是大家都明白 Sex sales, never fails。 为了赢得更多选票, 歌手们常常穿得很性感。 2009 年这样的噱头登峰造极, 德国人请来美国当红脱衣舞娘 Dita von Teese 助阵。 排练后被导演勒令在决赛时换上保守衣衫。 Dita 小姐说, 我的衣服怎么就过分了, 有些选手在舞台上做的动作我是万万做不出来。。。。后来那个比赛的 DVD 被评为限制级, 可见 Eurovision 赛场上春光之盛。 还有就是, 地缘政治对比赛结果影响很大。 民众给邻居打分往往慷慨, 导致东欧小国的名次总是比较靠前, 传统西欧中欧大国已经好几次垫底。 09 年开始加入评委评分, 对这个地缘政治的影响有多大矫正作用我没有看出来。

要论声乐水平, Eurovision 决赛上的歌手是没法跟我们青歌赛杀到后几轮的歌手们比的。 青歌赛上的选手比人家专业得太多。 青歌赛上歌手根据唱法分组比。 Eurovision 上, 每国选送一个节目, 不管唱法是什么。 决赛上, 常常是美声, 民歌, 各种通俗曲风, 重金属摇滚同台比。 什么样的牛鬼蛇神都同台竞技, 很乱很好玩。

Eurovision 上有时可以见到极大牌的歌星。 09 年法国派成名已 20 多年的国宝级歌星 Patricia Kaas 出赛。 可是终究因为歌曲品味不够大众化而败得很惨。 07 年乌克兰选送一位按青歌赛评委的标准要打入不会唱歌一流的 80 多岁大妈, 舞台之上笑熬浆糊, 结果差点点笑傲江湖, 以微弱比分输给一首歌唱同性恋的歌曲, 得到07年的第二名。

我看 Eurovision 决赛只有三年。 每次看的时候都会打分。 07 年的歌赛, 最得我心的是来自拉脱维亚的一组男声合唱。 那六位绅士是会唱歌的, 放在我们的青歌赛里都很有水准。 08 年来自以色列的一位青年歌手令我印象深刻。 我不认为他受过很专业的声乐训练, 可是他有一副天生美嗓。 歌曲旋律干净悠扬。 他至少是在那里唱歌。 这在 Eurovision 里已是难能可贵。 09 年我最喜欢爱沙尼亚选送的歌曲游牧民族。 这首歌歌词文学性十分强, 原词和英文翻译我贴在下面。 主唱的姑娘 Sandra Nurmsalu 在舞台上美丽无比, 长得有点像电子游戏最终幻想 8 里的女主角。 她的台风也是淡定出尘, 还有一点点很自然的腼腆。 爱死那个女孩子。 头腔共鸣少了点又有什么关系。 今年的 Eurovision 决赛不日就要开赛。 我很期待。 今年德国海选了一位 18 岁的姑娘出赛。 她长得很漂亮, 歌曲 Satellite 曲风很主流。 这些都是优势。 她的声音还是有欠训练, 但是这个在 Eurovision 里不是问题。 她的说唱风格有人喜欢有人不喜欢。 我还是希望她能把那首歌唱得委婉抒情一些。 不要把本来很主流的曲风处理成了比较小众的味道。 目前在几大打赌网站上, 她的预期名次很靠前。 祝她好运吧。

Eurovision 2009 Estonia: Urban Symphony – Rändajad

Kõrbekuumuses liiva
Lendab kui jääkülma lund
Öö peagi laotamas tiivad
Rändajaid saatma jääb tuul

See on tee nad rändavad nii päevast päeva
See on tee nad rändavad siis ajast aega
See on tee ta nähtamatu rajana kulgeb
Nende ees ta ootab kui riskida julged

Külmunud hingi vaid saadab
Kuuvalgus varje neist loob
Päikesekiirena sooja
Hommik taas endaga toob

See on tee nad rändavad nii päevast päeva
See on tee nad rändavad siis ajast aega
See on tee ta nähtamatu rajana kulgeb
Nende ees ta ootab kui riskida julged

Nad rändavad nii päevast päeva
Nad rändavad siis ajast aega
Ta nähtamatu rajana kulgeb
Ta ootab kui riskida julged

Üle mägede taevasse kaigub hääl

See on tee nad rändavad nii päevast päeva
See on tee nad rändavad siis ajast aega
See on tee ta nähtamatu rajana kulgeb
Nende ees ta ootab kui riskida julged
See on tee

English Translation
The Nomads

In the desert heat, the sand
blows like ice-cold snow
The night soon spreads its wings
Nothing but the wind to escort the nomads

That is the way they wander from one day to the next
That is the way they wander from one life to the next
That is the way it weaves an invisible path
on them, it waits until you are ready to take the risk

It carries only frozen souls
The moonlight makes their shadows
Warmth in a ray of sunlight
is what the morning brings once again

That is the way they wander from one day to the next
That is the way they wander from one life to the next
That is the way it weaves an invisible path
on them, it waits until you are ready to take the risk

They wander from one day to the next
They wander from one life to the next
It weaves an invisible path
It waits until you are ready to take the risk

A voice echoes across the mountains up to the heavens

That is the way they wander from one day to the next
That is the way they wander from one life to the next
That is the way it weaves an invisible path
on them, it waits until you are ready to take the risk
That is the way

Visiting Parents

Kai and I are having a vacation at my parents’ home in China.

We had great luck on the way back home. Berlin time April 15th around 17:00 Dirk sent Kai and I to airport Hannover. At that time, the airport of Hamburg was already closed due to the grievous volcano ash from Island. We were in the last flight from north Germany to Munich at that day. The plane was full, it was inconvenient for nursing but the people sitting around us were all friendly. Kai happily got his meal and was very well behaved in the fist flight. I changed Kai’s diaper in the airport of Munich and got into the plane to Shanghai without any delay. Kai got a small crib during the flight to Shanghai. I nursed him whenever he started to be fussy. There were many young children in the plane, so there was often crying in the plane, Kai cried loudly too. I guess no body slept really well, but the stewards on board were very friendly and always ready to help, I enjoyed the flight to Shanghai. My parents picked us up in the airport of Shanghai. Kai was very watchful when we were driving through the longest bridge in the world.

Kai had some jet lag, he fell alseep at 4:30 am, 2:30am and 0:45 am during the first three days and his day rhythm returned to normal thereafter. My parents really enjoy playing with Kai. My mother helped Kai doing his baby gym, my father sings to Kai and rocked him whenever there was a chance. There was a big river-side park near my parents’ home, we walk him in the park and enjoyed the fresh air and beautiful bird-singing there. Kai has been so happy!

Kai's first rice cereal!

Kai's first rice cereal!


On the second day after our arrival, my mother fed Kai the first rice cereal in his life. He swallowed much without too much fuss.

On the third day after our arrival, my cousin’s family visited us. Kai was always smiling to everyone and we really love him!
Kai loves being held by aunt

The day after my cousin’s visit, the weather in Ningbo turned extremely humid. The air humidity was 88% yesterday and 94% today. It was like walking into a sauna room when we went out. Tonight there has been heavy rain, hopefully the extremly humid weather will quickly go.

Today a friend of my parents invited us for a lunch. We had a lot of sea food in a small restaurant and Kai was well-behaved all the time. People were enchanted by his sweet smiles.

Our days are busy here. Kai is learning much and playing much, I hope he would love Ningbo, love China.

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